west coast, east coast, and back again

last book i've read: everything is illuminated by jonathan safran foer
band currently caressing my ears: thursday
general mood: "now i'm angry!" --bop the alligator on the head game
quote i just thought of: absence makes the heart grow fonder. ('til you can't take all the fondness you're attaining!)

so, i have been a travelling fool, let me tell you. i went to california for two weeks, returned and skipped off to chicago with the fam for the weekend, i attended a lovely 4-day music festival called lifest in appleton, wi, and now i will be heading off the maryland for 4 days. my, aren't we busy!

i loved lifest. my mom came with me, and she was the best friend i could have taken along. she was fun, and we had a blast. i saw some pretty awesome bands which i'll name when i have the time. i couldn't have asked for a better time.... except to have attended cornerstone. lifest is about 1/2 as good as c-stone, but i'm glad i got my dose of live music from somewhere.

wayland is turning 21, and i have been invited to attend the celebration in maryland with his family. he has an uncle out in maryland, and of course his mom and sister will be going also. i can't wait - i've never been east, except for florida. i am loving this coast hopping i seem to do so well.

the anger that i speak of from my mood comes from the fact that i feel pretty friendless here at home. i was looking forward to seeing sam and melissa, and when melissa decided to stay in milwaukee, and sam got a boyfriend, i feel like i'm losing them, and i'm not sure how to reverse it. i mean, i've called them both, and it's just so hard to talk to someone you never see. oh well, i'm not perfect, that's for sure. i wish things could just work out for once. when sam decided not to tell me whether she could make it to cornerstone or not, i was hurt. i mean, i would have loved to hear a yes or no, something, anything, but i got nothing. sure i was disappointed, but not letting me know was disheartening. so, i'll just chill out for a while, and see who wants to see me and make that effort, rather than what i perceive to be effort from my end of things. i'm just a big softy, in all the wrong places. ashley, if you ever see this, i just want you to know that i do understand. it's hard to try, and to get nothing back, or what you perceive as nothing back. i'm sorry, so so so so sorry....

but i'm not complaining about being at home. i love travelling places with my family. i just went on a trip to iowa with my dad, a 24-hour trip. it was great - i went to a sleepy little town, was able to get breakfast pizza from a truck stop (which was superb i might add), and see the upper mississippi in all its glory. it was also great just talking to my dad. the same went for lifest with my mom. i love bonding with my parents, they are my best friends.

summer is just about half over, and things are going great. now if only i had some friends here....