Better Times

last book i've read: One Hundred Years of Anthropology by J. O. Brew
music currently caressing my ears: whatever Sarah has on right now
general mood: apathetic
quote i just thought of: "All the effort you are making will ultimately pay off." --from a fortune cookie. and all I have to say is yeah right.

This weekend was amazing. It starts out with a certain member of The Evan Anthem signing onto aim. I talked to him, let him know my new screen name, and then he told me they were going to be doing a show near my town. At first it seemed impossible that I'd drive five hours to see him in St. Paul, but with my mom as company, we made the drive. It was an awesome day, and the concert just topped it off. Brian was so nice to me. I was able to talk to him while he was selling merch, I went back stage, and we talked until 10 minutes before he had to be on stage. It was the best time. I loved watching the show, and after they finished, I helped the guys with their merch table and continued to watch the other bands play. Oh, Ace Troubleshooter and Relient K were there too, you can imagine how many screaming prepubescent girls there were. Besides the many young kids, it was such an amazing time. I'm glad my mom was there, I'm glad we were able to get in (it was sold out, we got tickets from people who happened to recognize us!), I'm glad I got to talk to Brian. You could say I'm ready for Cornerstone, friends or no friends. Man, do I miss good times like these.

Here's to hoping....

4th week depression

last books i've read: The Gente Spanish textbook, A Social History of Anthropology in the United States by Thomas C. Patterson, and A Primer of Drug Action by Robert M. Julien
music currently caressing my ears: my new smart Coldplay playlist (It's so smart!!)
general mood: hmm, depressed. deeply.
quote i just thought of: "We never change, do we? We never learn, do we?" --Coldplay

It's fourth week here at Lawrence. I can feel the burn. The amount of work is getting to me, the stress, even the weather. I don't want it to get cold, but it is going to happen sooner or later, right....

OK, so yes I'm having boy problems. It's just so hard to stay connected with all the stress floating around this place. Even if we live right next to each other. But at least I can say I've tried. It just doesn't seem to help at all.... no matter what I do, it always comes back to this. This desire for something nameless, but something painful if not dealt with. So I don't know what to do. I never have, and it's not like I've had a relationship last for two years yet, why start now?

I've got so much work to do as I type. Gotta go do that now. I don't wish to dwell on my problems.