your watermelon heart

last book i've read: federal aviation regulations
currently caressing my ears: ticking clocks
general mood: curious
quote: "Each indecision brings its own delays and days are lost lamenting over lost days... What you can do or think you can do, begin it. For boldness has magic, power, and genius in it." --Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

I am twenty-three years old, and I am at the pinnacle of indecision. Sure, I'm not as messed up as others, thank god for that. But I am no less sure of my hurried steps, my ups and my downs, or my future than any other young'un I know. I know what I want for a career, and nothing but finances will stop me. But my heart is an entirely different matter. And my patience is thin, and I can't seem to shake neither the urge to be single nor the desire to start the rest of my life with the one I love. Too bad the one I love is TBA. My ocean just keeps waving, and you just keep floating by.

On lighter notes, my cat is incredibly adorable all the time. She greets me at my door, purrs until I show her copious amounts of attention, meows for treats, headbutts me whenever she can, has claimed my puffy red blanket as her own, insists on following me everywhere, and just seems to love me more than I'll ever know. Despite my suffering sinuses, I adore my little Maya. I knew I would, and it was only a matter of time before I acquired such a creature. Makes me smiley. :)

I recently had dinner with my parents and my flight instructor and his wife. My dad got to ask all his questions, but my parents also got to fully appreciate the care and dedication I've put into my training, as well as Steve has. My dad told me tonight that Steve wants nothing more than to see me succeed, and that's very true. All of us want nothing more than to see me make this career happen, and I'm not settling for less. Steve certainly is like a father figure to me, and I will never forget the Davis' kindness. I am forever appreciative, and my career will only have been possible because of their gift. I wouldn't be who I am without them.

Just more paths in life to be thankful to have been lead down. I think the universe is telling me this it's all good. And I gratefully agree.