last book i've read: The Bridge To Terabithia, by Katherine Paterson
currently caressing my ears: silence
general mood: unsettled, moved (nearly to tears), depressed
quote: "Time goes by, life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone." --source unknown
Nah, I'm back to that place where I wonder about things that could have been and won't be, back to that hellish questioning indecisive limbo that pokes and prods and damns and never brings clarity, but only most questions, more and more and more. I keep hoping I see the end of the tunnel, but it's always just another craggily turn. It's just my goddamn compass. It keeps pointing to his north.
I know that things are they way they're supposed to be. I am here, and he is there, and our paths cross seldomly but sweetly. But perhaps never the same way as they did before. The gravity is strong, and my heart longs for the ways things were. I guess somedays will always be better than others, but I need more of these days to be good than sad....
The ghost still haunts, the memories blindside, the heartache throbs, the memories don't fade. This isn't going to end anytime soon, is it?
I guess I'll make the most of it.
27 January 2008
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CHEER UP, Heather! It is not March (as your title suggests) which means that February is perfectly fine for cold temperatures. You know, life is full things that can make you feel sad. In fact, it can be really easy to become depressed if you really want to be ... almost too easy. If you focus your energy on surrounding yourself with things that make you happy, you will find that you will become happy. Give Sarah a cll. I am sure she would appreciate a call from you and I am also sure you both would bring some sunshine into eachother's days.
I was wondering if you would add The Jazz Orgy to your list of music in your profile. Also, Andy says that he has misplaced his phone ... he thinks it might be in the van or at the venue.
HAVE A GREAT DAY HEATHER!!!
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