determined to make things work

last book i've read: FAR/AIM by FAA
currently caressing my ears: all Jimmy Eat World. Everything I have in my possession, anyway. And Tom Waits.
general mood: optimistic, in love
quote: "Soul meets soul on lover's lips." --Percy Bysshe Shelly

It's been awesome the last month. Well, not every moment has been great, but it's been building up into something that makes sense. And never more has something made sense.

I realized what a mistake I was making in letting Andy go. I had second-guessed the relationship, made a huge mess of things, and then realized I was giving up the greatest thing I've got in my life. And I almost realized that too late. I feel lucky to have a second chance. I almost lost everything.

Andy and I are back on track. It took a fair amount of convincing him that I would shape up, that I am trustworthy, that I still love him deeply and want what's best for him. But he let me back into his heart, and I got my spot back. I am so happy to have that back. I am so happy he still loves me, and I am so very much in love with him. It's been going well, and as our hearts realign, I'm hoping everything else will fall into place as well. I have high hopes again. And this time, to the best of my abilities, I won't screw it up.