last book i've read: anything about flying
currently caressing my ears: sleater-kinney. all their albums. delicious!
general mood: withdrawn, and not confident
quote: "When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it." --Henry Ford (so key in my life right now)
and
"Realize that your present difficulty is only a small part of you, and the rest of you is doing quite well, thank you." --Lynn Grabhorn
This isn't getting any easier. None of it. I broke it off with Andy, then another one comes along to have a piece of my heart. My god, what is going on? No pressure, right?
I want it all, but I know I cannot have it all. And I'm doing better at being honest with everyone involved. But someone's gonna hurt or feel like they got a raw deal. And I HATE HURTING PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!! So why do I keep sacrificing myself for other's happiness? Mark Martin was right, sometimes I need to be a little more selfish. Even though I feel like I've been pretty selfish by wanting it all. Is any of this supposed to make sense??
"the hardest part is things already said
getting better, worse, i cannot tell
why do good things never wanna stay?
some things you lose, some things you give away"
--sleater-kinney, good things
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