I am cold

You know what, I hate getting my hopes up. I usually end up with disappointment and ultimately sadness when I do. It's far too easy for me. And I have good reason not to get my hopes up. I am usually let down by myself, it's really not an infrequent thing for me. But I guess what is the point of life if not for bad times that make the good times seem so good. Well geez, when does it get good? Ha.

I hate to bitch and moan about my life and the things in it, it's just that it never changes. There's always someone hiding something from me, always something I end up doing wrong to some degree, and there's never enough time to deal with any of it - you just have to keep your chin up, go on with the next term, and pretend it's all fine. But it rarely is. For me, at least. Wow, you really have better things to do than read this right now, I'm sure. I just needed to get it out of my system. Always...getting...it...out...of...my...system.