some things never change.

last book i've read: house of leaves.
cds in heavy rotation: the evan anthem, revis, 28 days later soundtrack, moulin rouge soundtrack.
classes this term: research methods I, stats 117, and intro to philosophy.
my general mood at the time of writing this: slightly anxious, mostly content.
magnetic poetry quote of the month:
i dream in the snow
i want to hibernate
beneath it
and feel the bloom of winter.

i have read a book named house of leaves. this is only a link to the message board, but is quite helpful in answering questions concerning the book. anyway, i found the book very odd and yet powerful in its own way. it makes reference to many authors, and has a way of living beyond its pages. check it out. house of leaves by mark z. danielewski. an amazing read.

the message board, however, consists mainly of people that feel comfortable in the internet bubble. but that's not to knock them really. if that where one's happiness lies, who am i to tell them not to continue doing what they do? if there's one thing i learned from the wayway, it's each to his own, truly. and also, be who you be. it's that simple. "you are what you are and you ain't what you ain't....''

the homework is getting to me. i'm three assignments behind in stats. math + me = disaster indeed. plus its graphs. it gets uglier every day. also, of course, i keep struggling with the same self-esteem problem that i've had for a while now. the "i'll never be as intelligent" thing keeps coming back to haunt me. for some reason, i feel like i'll never measure up to the intelligent people here at lawrence, much less in my field. today though in philosophy, i realized i just happen to function differently than most. i tend to be more sensible with the things i learn, how to apply them and such. i could be considered the farmer (i am from the dairy state, no less). physicists (galileo, to be specific) are the people who think of equations like d=v*t. the farmer doesn't think of the equation, but rather does his own mental evaluation: it will take me x amount of hours to do this job....he almost intuitively knows and shows the equations function daily without knowledge of it. the physicist is the one with the brain that dreams it up, but doesn't necessarily use it daily. i believe i identify more often with a farmer than a physicist. sensible. and that's fine with me.

another day down....hopefully another 21,900 to go. i kinda like my chirpy manner....