for the moment.

hi. haven't seen you in awhile. but it seems you're ok with that. and suddenly, so am i. but i know you're doing fine, know you're embracing life, or did i hear you wrong? you're becoming numb, becoming a ghost of the old you. you're changing your colors, but i know you. and that isn't changing anything. i want to help, i want to hold. could you let down your hair for a little while?

doing well. exams are next week. it's scary, but the sooner i face it and it's over, the sooner i can go home and be with the ones i love most. i look forward to tomorrow.

i can only hope you'll listen. will i get a response of frustration or joy, i'm not sure, but i long for something more than it has been. i have let you down, it doesn't get any worse, but i long to make it better again. at least i want to make it better for as long as it will be better, for happiness doesn't last forever. can't you see what you're doing to yourself? a thousand things i wish i knew, i wish i never knew. get better, my fragile little butterfly.