bpm

last book i've read: rereading the mastery of love by ruiz
currently caressing my ears: hip hop to blast
general mood: fascination mixed with deep melancholy
quote: “The fascination of what's difficult has dried the sap out of my veins, and rent spontaneous joy and natural content out of my heart.” --William Butler Yeats

Beats per minute (BPM) is a unit typically used as either a measure of tempo in music, or a measure of one's heart rate. A rate of 60 bpm means that one beat will occur every second. One bpm is equal to 1 Hz.

The last 10 months of my life have been the most bipolar I've ever been. And now, without Andy, I hope that ends. I'm used to constant stability, comfort, and consistency with smart suggestions. I just needed to get off the rollercoaster in my mind. Done.

My inner battles consist of learning to be alone, though I've successfully done that before. It's just the demons in my mind telling me how sad I am, when really this is so good for me. He'll be all right, and eventually so will I. Just wish that time was sooner than later. I'm learning patience as well.

One of these days I'll learn to meditate properly!