it's a wonderful night for a moondance....

last book i've read: an empty spoon by sunny decker
songs on itunes i'm currently playing: anything fiona apple.
my general mood: just ok.
random quote: "love leaves a black spot, which take time to erase. hate is easier." --bernice, from an empty spoon

i got the exam back, and received a grade that made me feel ok. i know, really vague and nothing special here, but it's true. i don't have fancy words, but i know myself, at least....so i did just fine. for me, at least.

but the exams continue. one tomorrow, one on friday. but enough exams. i just received an early birthday present from w and he got me a....guess. an iPod. oh yeah baby. they're so cool. i couldn't ask for anything more. i'm spoiled....rotten.

i was thinking about you today. it made me sad, actually. in the middle of my health psych. i remembered the good times, the selfish times, and thinking of the way i wish things were. i want to help. more than you can imagine. but it seems i'll never get another chance....such lonely times. i hope it's not that way for you. although it doesn't sound like it....drinking and depression just don't mix. you know you know better. and i also just plain miss you. miss you, the you i once knew. your sweet face, your kindness, your gentle nature. but maybe i was wrong. i hope i wasn't wrong. i wanted you to know that i still think of you. so much frustration for such a little girl. "you'll grow up someday. you'll realize, you'll fantasize, you'll rationalize....you weren't meant for the gutter."