i'm tired. it's simple and as easy as that. i'm just tired. it's only the end of the second full week at lawrence, and i'm so exhausted. but i guess that's why i'm here, to stretch myself thin and see how far i can go....
i'd say that even though i'm tired, i'm doing well. i have an a- so far in developmental psychology 265. but, that's only after one lab assignment. we'll see after the first midterms how i'm doing then. hope it stays an a. i'll be proud of myself for once.
sometimes i wonder if the things i do mean anything to anyone. yeah, of course there's always s and w and b (my parents too!) to make me feel good about things. they are so good to me. but what about the other people in this world that aren't sensitive to your feelings, that couldn't care less, that don't take a second to think about what they're actually saying? will i ever talk to these girls i loved again? i'm not sure. but the thought is sad to me, and sad is that last thing i want to be right now. i'm also confused about a few important things in my life, it seems. big things. i don't know where i stand, and i'm not sure if it's where i want to stand, either. not sure if i'm chasing after bubbles. such a sad existence....
i could use a bit of reassurance, a shoulder, a hand. even if i'm not sure what i need reassurance for. (sept 2's entry is good for this moment.)
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